As the steel door slams shut
it echoes of this places sorrow
and my anger begins to reveal
it might be some time before I see tomorrow.
Fighting myself to find someone to blame
my guilt becomes a furious rage
how did I end up here again
what will come with the turn of the next page?
Despair setting into my heart
as these concrete walls begin to close me in
helplessness becoming conscious
of the whirlwind of pain within.
Don't quite know how it started
but know very well how it comes to an end
after all things good dissipate
isolation becomes my only friend.
Bitterness rising in me like a fire
I want to scream, fight, and cry
how did I end up here again
where claustrophobia clouds the mind.
Trying to overcome my pain
my solitude becomes a horrible toil
and every time I close my eyes
my life's blood begins to boil.
How did I end up here again
and will my violent tendencies subside
because I want to spend the rest of my life
looking at these walls from the otherside.
Written from Mayo Correctional Institution
