From The Other Side

As the steel door slams shut

it echoes of this places sorrow

and my anger begins to reveal

it might be some time before I see tomorrow.

Fighting myself to find someone to blame

my guilt becomes a furious rage

how did I end up here again

what will come with the turn of the next page?

Despair setting into my heart

as these concrete walls begin to close me in

helplessness becoming conscious

of the whirlwind of pain within.

Don't quite know how it started

but know very well how it comes to an end

after all things good dissipate

isolation becomes my only friend.

Bitterness rising in me like a fire

I want to scream, fight, and cry

how did I end up here again

where claustrophobia clouds the mind.

Trying to overcome my pain

my solitude becomes a horrible toil

and every time I close my eyes

my life's blood begins to boil.

How did I end up here again

and will my violent tendencies subside

because I want to spend the rest of my life

looking at these walls from the otherside.

Written from Mayo Correctional Institution

Mail Call

Another night without any mail,

it's starting to feel as if no one cares.

In here all on my own,

hoping someone picks up the phone.

What happened to all who were so close,

the ones that said "I'll miss you the most"?

If that's how they feel, I can't tell,

I only want to know if they are well.

I guess I am asking to much,

for them to show a little love.

But I'm alright and it's okay,

When I get out it will remain the same way.

Only I'll be the one who doesn't care,

and they'll wonder why I'm being unfair.

That's when I'll let them know the pain it caused,

Not to get a letter from them while behind bars.

Written in Mayo Correctional Institution.

Happy

Smiles on their faces

Held hands and shared laughs

Steps kept at the same pace

Where do they go

It's there I want to see

Soft pillows at night

Gentle breeze upon the nape

Two stars burning bright

Under the cover of night

I am sure this is where I want to be

Rolling waves on the water

Rivers flowing oh so smooth

Sometimes a tender rain

This I feel I need

Only my cards are solitary

My hands they hold each other

The head rest is abandoned

and my boat has sunk

Now I just drowned.

Whisper

Break the silence

Raining June night

Breeze in the trees

A full moons flight

Whisper a lovely tune

In the ear of love

Dreams come true

Wished upon stars above.